been here….haven’t done this.
Well it’s time I think to finally admit that I am not strong enough to deal with the complicating and sometimes obsurdly awkward situations in my life. Yesterday I had my second anxiety attack in a week, before them I had none for almost 3 years. What is bringing back my anxiety, triggering my depression to amp up and cripply my mind and body? Could it be my 7 month separation from my husband? Raising to toddlers as a single mother? Going back to work and leaving my children home with strangers or good friends. So many things could have triggered these bouts of anxiety and depression.
I have decided, however, to go seek help with all of the above issues and so many more. I am leaving my children in the care of good family and friends while I enter a mental health facilty to treat my anxiety disorder and post partum depression as well as learn to deal with a mental illness and be a single mom. I look forward to the new adventure in finding my demons and hopefully extinguishing their hold on me or at the very least learning to cope in a healthy manner.
I would appreciate everyone’s thoughts and beliefs, comments and considerations.
xbtotherockx said,
May 17, 2010 at 5:07 am
wow, tasha. we havent talked in a while, so this is a shock. i appreciate your honesty and courage to go and get the help you need. most people won’t admit that, so good for you. where will you be? if your in a regina location, let me know if i can bring you a coffee someday. peace.